Why is it the closer that I get to Phat Camp that I feel a little less motivation? I dont even know if that is the RIGHT word for it but I am just feeling "discouraged" today. I want to be further along in my fitness world than I am. For whatever reason, I am craving sugar like there is no tomorrow. I had just have had a bad couple of days of food for some reason --- there was no rhyme or reason besides laziness & lack of motivation.
I hate to bring it up because I don't want to be a downer .... I just don't know what my deal is but I do refuse to let it get me to the places that I had been at before. I will just have to shake it off and move on. I will continue to just keep faking it.
I think that part of it was that I am worried or anxious over Phat Camp. Will I be strong enough? Will I have enough endurance? Will I be able to keep up with all the girls? Will I let Corinne down? I think I am anxious over that since I have been with Corinne so long that I should be at goal but it took me awhile to find myself, then I got going, then I got pregnant, then I miscarried and this week is FINALLY my week that I can go "balls to the wall" and I think I am just having a mental block.
Maybe I will make an early night and I hope that tomorrow will bring a better day, better attitude. :)
5.05.2008
Closer, closer .... cold feet?
Posted by Becca at 7:47 PM
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You will be wonderfudl at Phat Camp.You can do it.
Kick that Fat Girl in the head and just keep on truckin.
Becca,
Hang in there...you are doing great!!! I know things are hard for you rigt now. Just think about how you felt 6 months ago and how you feel today...I know you feel 1 million times better today. Don't worry about Phat Camp you made the commitment to go and that's half the battle.
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