Why do your friends say the dumbest things??

Do you ever have someone who is your friend who just doesn't seem to believe in your or doubts things that you are really excited about? And you ask yourself "why is this person my friend?"

Today I am really excited and pumped up because I got my ticket booked for Phat Camp in June and also going to go see my sweet friend, Tonja back in Wisconsin that I haven't gotten to visit or see in like 12 years (wow we are getting old).

So today I was saying how excited that I was that I am going to be going to this "Phat Camp" or boot camp for fitness. Someone who I consider a friend makes the comment to me, "They call it boot camp for a reason. Its going to be hard, you are going to die and why in the heck would you want to spend your money on something stupid like that?" I replied back "For starters, I don't think its stupid, I want to go, I know its going to be hard but I am ready for the challenge. I think its something that I need to do for me in my life." She make the comment that really kicks me in the gut "Becca ... we are about the same size and there is no way that I could last 5 minutes in a boot camp, what makes you think you can?" I said "Cause I believe that I can and I have the endurance to make it."

So anyhow I just was thinking that I think I can make it! I know that I can do good at it. Just is one of those things that come up in life that make you think, why are you my friend again? :) It makes me think about life and your goals. I really do believe that sometimes we all need to re-evulate some of our friendships we have and figure out if they are getting us or helping us get to the places in life that we want to be at. Are they same as you? If not, will they at least support you along your journey?

On another front of fitness, relationships, friends --- this weekend was a huge success and hit for the Phit-n-Phat family. There were a few people who conquered their first 1/2 marathon, a few people got to meet each other in person, and etc. :)

I got an email from dear sweet Corinne that boosted me up in the clouds: For you, missy, I think you need to get in on whatever week your team is on and kick it like you've been there the whole time. You are a strong woman even though you aren't going to feel like that the first few workouts, but don't doubt yourself and just push to what you can do right now and then push a little more the next day. Becca, I really believe in you. I don't know what has changed for you and I don't care. I just know that I like this positive Becca who is ready to find her hotness, maturity, kickass spirit, and take herself to new challenges.

There was more to her email but let me say that this just made my day! I was in cloud nine and I continue to have people around me that are like that so that I don't get down and I keep myself up. :) I have lots of plans for myself and my fitness goals and I can't wait to start achieving them.

Phat Camp: June 13-15 (Nashville, TN)
1/2 Marathon: December or January
1/2 Marathon: June 2009/ Nashville, TN

I am excited to see some changes in my body and mind this year. Stay tuned for the kickass Becca :)

Movie in Vernonia?

I live in a TINY town called Vernonia, Oregon. When I say small, I am talking about like 2200 population. Anyhow we have a movie that is getting somewhat filmed here in our town. Its crazy to me ..

Check out a few links that we found. :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/cupdegrave/

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1099212/

http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/hr/content_display/features/columns/on_location/e3i2db2b6662428870c6b5d621d545eac1f

Go, Go my PnP Friends

Today there were a few of our PnP gals and guy that did the CMM 1/2 marathon. I am so happy and proud of EACH one of them for their accomplishment. I wish I could have been there with them but maybe next year. Here is a few results I found and I will try to update later when I get the other results. :)
Trish: 2:41:43 Finished
Dawn: 2:22:54 Finished
Jessica: 2:12:48 Finished
Bill: 2:24:00 Finished
Kate: 2:41:45 Finished

Way to go EVERYONE! :) I am so happy for each one of you! If you want to track anyone, go here.

Today, I got to talk to both Trish and Corinne! Sweet! I am so happy that I did. It cheered up my day like there was no tomorrow. I got to say hi to everyone as well --- Jess, Dawn, Corinne, Lorie, Bill, Kate ... It was great! :) I felt so a part of PnP ...... I got to tell you, I just love this group of people. :)

Hanging in there ..

Today is a hard day for me but all in all, I am holding up though it seems like its by a string.

I went in for a DnC -- It was a hard day for me emotionally. Its was the "final thing" to do to get things behind us. The procedure itself went okay but emotionally its been really hard for me but Vincent has been the sweetest, kindest, and been completely supportive during the whole thing.

I have not only been upset over the DnC part but also for the fact that I had to go in for "minor surgery". I had never been in surgery and that part FREAKED me out.

Now its time for me to move on but its a little hard to be honest. All of the sudden, I hear that EVERYONE is pregnant or hear it on TV, radio or something. It just seems like a slap in the face all the time but I am trying to make plans or things to have on my plate to help me keep moving forward. If I don't, I think I will go crazy :)

Thanks for all the love and support that you have all given me --- there is no enough words to say "Thank you" :) I love you all!

A heartbreaking message ...

Went into the doctor today for another ultrasound and they "confirmed" our baby died. They said that there was no heartbeat or growth or my blood levels aren't for a viable pregnancy. She said "she hated to tell me that but she believes my baby had died" ... wow. That was a jab to my heart today.I am holding up "okay" ... I am not happy, I am a little angry, sad .... I just am having a hard time dealing with it. And its weird for me cause I know have to go into the doctor and find out what I am going to do from here. Where and what I am wanting to do since I haven't miscarried or anything. I dont even know if that is the right wording.

I do plan on getting back into things cause its the only thing that I have control of, the thing that will make me feel the best and etc. Just trying to get my head around it all. Its hard ...

I am so thankful to have a wonderful husband who was there for me to help me support me through all of this, comforting and always thinking of me emotionally. I love him so much. What I would do without him? FREAK out! :)

Besides my sweet husband, I have a wonderful network of people who are loving, kind and supportive for me through family, friends and co-workers. Thanks for all being there for me.

Im getting VERY concerned ..

I have been having some really bad cramping but no passing blood or anything so I called my doctors and they had me to come in yesterday for an ultrasound and blood work. They couldn't find the heartbeat and they feel like they should at 6 1/2 weeks. My blood count came back good and high so I have to go back in tomorrow and get more blood work to see if my numbers are staying high or dropping. Then I have an appointment on 4/28 for another ultrasound and see if they can THEN hear the heartbeat.

This is REALLY taking an emotional toll on me because they told me to prepare for the worse which would be a miscarriage. I am trying to hold my head up high and believe that things will be okay but its little hard when you hear that from the doctor.