Went into the doctor today for another ultrasound and they "confirmed" our baby died. They said that there was no heartbeat or growth or my blood levels aren't for a viable pregnancy. She said "she hated to tell me that but she believes my baby had died" ... wow. That was a jab to my heart today.I am holding up "okay" ... I am not happy, I am a little angry, sad .... I just am having a hard time dealing with it. And its weird for me cause I know have to go into the doctor and find out what I am going to do from here. Where and what I am wanting to do since I haven't miscarried or anything. I dont even know if that is the right wording.
I do plan on getting back into things cause its the only thing that I have control of, the thing that will make me feel the best and etc. Just trying to get my head around it all. Its hard ...
I am so thankful to have a wonderful husband who was there for me to help me support me through all of this, comforting and always thinking of me emotionally. I love him so much. What I would do without him? FREAK out! :)
Besides my sweet husband, I have a wonderful network of people who are loving, kind and supportive for me through family, friends and co-workers. Thanks for all being there for me.
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