torn between to worlds....

I have to say that I am really homesick for oregon and vincent but then ive been in montana and north idaho and I miss my life and friends here. I just feel so torn between the two places. Of course there are reasons that I don't or fear coming back to Idaho but I still miss it so much. The life here is so much the same in a way to vernonia but then again its so much different. I just really miss it but it will be good to see and be home again in Oregon. I hope that I can get to the point that I can come back more and more to see family and friends. :)
Well I'm here at Monrach coffee to meet my sweet friend, Deb. Man I love her and miss her. Maybe we will get another picture together.

Is this puppy love or what ....???

Today Vincent and I just went into town for lunch, get a few things for our camping trip at the end of next month and we getting a few things done. :) I just love him so much ... have you just sometimes spent some time with someone that you love before and you just realize how much you are in love that person that you can't even express it in words! :)

Thats how I feel about Vincent. He is my world --- I love spending every second with him. I just love how we can spend time together doing the smallest things yet we are perfectly happy and content!

Here is a picture of us --- today we took it and I think we are so cute and I REALLY love this picture of us and I think its something that is so sweet!

I LOVE YOU VINCENT!!!!!

Tready The Treadmill

Today we got delivered to us Tready the Treadmill. I am so excited about it ... Its going to be so nice to be able to have it here at home so there will be NO excuse not to work out and I am hoping that Vincent will able to use it as well.

I am SUPER excited about tready the treadmill. :) See ya every morning at 6am Tready! :)

Camp 18

What is the best thing about Camp 18? I HAVE TO SAY the cinnamon rolls! But the best part is that Vincent and I had a little lunch date together. It was a lot of fun --- its probably like 30 mins from our house but its an old logging lodge but they have GREAT food, lots of it and the atmosphere itself is a lot of fun.

So today we went up there -- had a wonderful little lunch date together. We brought home just ONE of their cinnamon rolls for a treat later. OH HEAVEN! I just love these things! I think it is almost worth the drive to head back up there just to get another one.



I mean look at it -- its the size of his hand!








My sexy man ... I just love him to pieces! **KISS**

Visit with my Mom ..

I had my mom come and stay down here for a couple days -- Just about it a week. There were good times, bad times but overall I guess I can say it was a good day. I have come to realize that we are not alike in a lot of ways but that is oka. Thats what is so GREAT about being who we are is that we have our own personalities.

We got to go to the ocean and enjoy a day at the beach. I have to say this was a GREAT day for both us. My mom hasn't been able to visit the beach in a long time but she REALLY seemed to enjoy it. I am so happy that we got to go ---
I miss my mom in so many levels. I guess a part of me is the kid who misses the times we had as child/ mother. I mean there were a lot of ups and downs in childhood but really who doesn't have those. I just miss how we could openly talk more and more. Now its hard cause we are so far apart ... maybe we will be close again some day.

I love her so much! I hope that we will be able to have another NICE visit together. ;) She was planning on another trip here in October so I hope that we will be able to enjoy another great time. Maybe this time we will get to the falls? Who knows ... lets see what I have up my sleeve for then. :)

Picture of all of us together in our newly tiled kitchen :) Oh and that shirt she is wearing --- its cause of me! I had to take her shopping to get some pretty! :)

Six Months -- I MISS YOU GRAMPA!

I can't believe its been six months since I last talked to my sweet grampa. Where has the time gone? Has the pain gotten easier? HELL no! Its just that I know how to compress my feelings VERY well. Since I dont want to cry my eyes out all the time; I just put it aside and try not to think about it. I like to think about when he was alive and he would joke with me, always giving me a hard time about something, telling me that he was proud of me or that he loved me. SO today; I try hard to remember those times and try to still live my life so that he would be proud of me EVERYDAY. I sure do miss him --- I can't wait to be able to see him again, hug him and tell him about everything. Besides my husband, he was the second best man in my life and I will NEVER forget him. I will never live my life a day without thinking of him, I will never live my life so that he would be disappointed in me.

I LOVE YOU GRAMPA! I MISS YOU! I MISS SO MUCH!!! PLEASE BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY THAT THE ONLY THINGS IN LIFE THAT I MISS SO MUCH IS YOU!!! YOU HAVE BEEN IN MY HEART ALWAYS and NEVER WILL LEAVE THERE.

I love you Grampa!

This picture is one of the last hugs I had from my grampa! I will never forget!!